"A life that is not documented is a life that within a generation or two will largely be lost to memory."
- Elder Dennis B. Neuenschwander

Thursday, January 9, 2014

Emotions Unknown

Yesterday I got to see my SIL's new baby for the first time.  They got her out of her carseat and handed her to me.  As I took her I was surprised by my emotions.  I felt the sting of tears coming to my eyes. What the heck?  Mind you, I don't usually cry when I hold a newborn, except my own when I first see them.  I was caught off guard by the surge of emotions I was feeling.  Was it happiness for my sister in law and her husband having their first baby?( I am certainly happy for them.)  Was it because Tyson and I have decided 4 is enough and I was mourning the thought that I was probably not having any more of my own little bundles of joy?  Was it because I don't have a little girl of my own. Honestly I'm not sure.  The only thing I'm sure about is that I have no idea where the emotion came from. 
I'm not posting this to say I need to have another baby.  But, holding that little sweet baby girl made me feel all weepy and emotional. I can imagine the fear and panic in Tyson's eyes when I started to cry while I was holding her! ;)


3 comments:

Melissa said...

I left a whole big comment and totally got jipped.
Now I can't be bothered.
LOL

Melissa said...

I loved that yelling article by the way. Thanks for sharing.

Harlin Family said...

Melissa,now I'm dying to know what your whole big comment was. I guess you'll have to tell me in person sometime.