Life is feeling extra heavy at the moment. There are struggles and sadness that are just overwhelming. Some affect me directly and others indirectly. Just last night I got a call from my mom that a distant cousin, a young father, was killed in a sledding accident. Just months earlier his brother was killed after he was hit by a car. This family has had more then their fair share of trials. I am amazed at the faith and strength they have shown throughout their life that has been riddled with hardship. I know that this is a part of life. I know sorrows we pass through are part of the refining process. I know that their is life after death. I know that this young father has had a joyous reunion with family that have passed beyond the veil before him. But, my heart aches for those left behind. I know and pray that they will find comfort and feel joy again. But after I got the news last night I felt weighed down and heavy in my soul.
This life can be awfully hard. I find that if one thing is out of wack I feel completely overwhelmed. That one thing will nag at my mind until it is resolved. Some of the problem is that things might be out of my control. I can do what I can to help but , in some cases, it is ultimately up to someone else to make changes and I can't control that. That is really hard for me, especially when it comes to my children. To see them struggle is hard. To know that I can only help them so much and at some point they have to help themselves is hard for me. Teaching them, loving them and lots of prayers is about all I can do I guess.
I know the Savior can help to make our burdens light, I know there is a balm in Gilead. But man, sometimes life is a good kick in the pants! But, I will not quit, I cannot quit. I came across a quote by Elder Holland. It says....
That will be my motto for now. :)
2 comments:
I love that motto.
Sorry you feel weighed down. I hope it can pass sooner rather than later.
This is so sad. I am so sorry. I'll be contacting you tomorrow to chat. Life is hard, it's true. I think that is why I have chosen Trust in the Lord as my motto for this year. There are few things we do have total control over (if any), but we can trust that God has us in His hands, and it sure takes a load off. Peace, be still. God is in control.
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